Monday, January 25, 2010

1st 2nd begins..

my 1st day of my 1st year 2nd sem in UTP had ended..i was totally free the whole..its like i'm on a holiday or something..the only class(Engineering graphic) was at 9am and ended at 10am..then..oh wait..there's no lab for these 2 weeks..OMG..too free for now..

so i ended up in my room almost the whole afternoon and the later roommate asked me to go gym with him and i thought..why now.. :)

gym was fun but a little bit tiring..it has been awhile since i last went for a sport or exercise.. T.T
and friends next door decided to move to V5 so we too decided to shift into their room since david's room is just opposite ours..oh well..there goes the troubles and funs.. :P

well..life gonna get busier and busier week by week from now on.. :(

Thursday, January 21, 2010

recently..

Chinese New Year is coming near..so i made some cookies during my semester break to earn some extra money..or in other word,its my part time job..well, i spent my money in it and in hope i'll get it back with some profits so i did not go anywhere to enjoy my holiday..still have some left in the room so i decided to post it in facebook and TAG TAG TAG..haha..the most popular sale was of course, pineapple tart..i almost sold every single one of them and kept some for UTPian..hehe

i sent an e-mail to my beloved Kak Azi and Kak Mas about two days ago..just to thank them for the wonderful week of STE in Permata Bangi..and it's a perfect timing and programme to fill up my boring holiday..i really learn a lot from the camp and i am actually hoping that it doesnt end that fast..well, its common for a camp has its boringness in the beginning but as it goes on and we get excited about it then we realise it's about the end of the camp..

not long after i sent the e-mail, i got an auto-reply e-mail from Kak Azi stating that she's busy with something on..and to my surprise, she did reply this morning when i check my mail..though she was busy with her stuff, she still has the timeto check her mail and send me a reply..and she promised me to write a longer when after she finish with her current event..i was like " O M G" when i saw her name in my mail box..i'm touched..

at the beginning, i planned to go to Stadium Putra to watch badminton Malaysia Open especially Lin Dan, Peter Gade and Taufik Hidayat are playing..due to some reason, the plan cancelled..i planned to watch the semi-final matches which seem to be interesting but now that Lin Dan pulled out and Taufik is beaten in 1st round, i guess nothing is worth watching anymore since i watched Chong Wei fought Peter Gade last year semi-final..well..lucky me?

semester break is coming to an end this sun and busy life will start again soon..just that this time will be a little different from last sem, since something happen..hehe..

i'm expecting to meet my friends back in the campus..and wondering how to organise my room at V2E-210 this time..its smaller than my room in V6..damn..

Monday, January 11, 2010

Sang Helang

Program 'Soaring the Eagle' (STE) yang bermula pada 3 januari telahpun berakhir. Aku tidak pernah sesekali menyangka bahawa aktiviti-aktiviti sebegini mampu memberi kesan yang mendalam pada diriku. Jika aku tak silap, program yang mendatangkan kesan yang sama pada masa yang lalu adalah 'Dharma Youth Camp' (DYC) dan 'La Sallian's Leader National Convention'.
Asalnya, kalau ikut hajat hati, ingin kuponteng STE. Tak kiralah hendak memberi apa jua alasannya. Sebab aku sudah membuat perancangan untuk pergi ke Sabah, negeri di bawah bayu. Sebuah tempat yang kurindu sehingga kini. Namun masa telah membuktikan pilihanku untuk menyertai STE adalah tepat. STE telah membuka mataku, untuk melihat dunia dari arah yang lain. Jika sebelum ini mataku sudah terbuka, STE memperluaskan pandanganku lagi.

PETRONAS Permata mengingatkan diriku tentang Grand Blue Wave Hotel and Taiping Bukit Merah Resort, tempat di mana aku menyertai Program Kecemerlangan BAKTI pada 2005 dan 2006. Setaraf. Aku pernah mendengar cerita tentang STE daripada kawan-kawan yang pernah menyertainya sebelum ini, tetapi, tempat yang digelar syurga oleh para peserta ini jauh berbeza daripada gambaran yang diberikan. Bilik berpenghawa dingin, pemanas air, gim untuk bersenam, basikal untuk dipinjam, gelanggang dan padang boleh untuk digunakan dan pool serta snuker tidak dikecualikan. Ah, tempat ini bagaikan mimpi indah untuk orang yang dijemput menyertai sebuah kem!
Tambahan pula, kumpulan aku (Group 2) terdiri daripada 20 orang rakan yang hebat-hebat belaka serta 2 orang facilatator yang memang terbaik sekali. Aku tidak mengharapkan sesuatu yang mustahil, cuma berharap ikatan persahabatan yang terbina dalam masa 5 hari setengah ini tidak mudah diputuskan begitu sahaja kerana walaupun masanya adalah singkat, namun aku sangat gembira kerana dapat mengenali mereka semua dan lebih mengenali kawan yang telah berkenalan sebelum STE.


Kak Mas (kiri) dan Kak Azi (kanan) yang mengendalikan kumpulan 2, pada pendapat saya, berjiwa muda. Mungkin mereka pernah melalui zaman yang bergelar remaja namun, kata-kata serta tingkah laku mereka tidak berubah seperti sebahagian daripada kita. Kemunculan mereka berdua telah memberi inspirasi yang baru untukku, memberitahuku impian yang pernah sekali berkabur menjadi mimpi masih boleh menjadi harapan yang menyinar di hujung jalan. Cuma, persoalannya, apakah aku dapat memberi alasan yang kukuh untuk terus mempercayai cerita masa depan masih menungguku untuk mengukir plotnya? Jawabnya sudah tentu aku ada.
Perjalanan 5 hari setengah di Permata sudah cukup untuk mendewasakan pemikiranku, sekurang-kurangnya aku dapat berfikir setaraf lebih tinggi dan selangkah lebih jauh daripada sebelum ini. Aku cuma berharap STE mengambil tempatnya sebelum aku melangkah masuk ke alam sarjana muda. Untung sekali junior-junior yang bakal mengelar diri mereka sebagai Student 1st year 1st sem. Semoga mereka dapat menggunakan peluang ini sebaik mungkin. Bagiku, masih belum terlambat lagi jika nak memulakannya. Walaupun mungkin terlambat sedikit, namun aku masih mempunyai masa yang tinggal untuk berubah.
Kawan? Eh, banyak! Ada roy, pete, zaid, deen, syuhada, allen, mazuin, azimah, fauzan, haziq, syuk, ridhwan, haiqal, dan imi. Yang lain boleh kata dah kenal sebelum ini. Namun, kehadiran mereka serba sedikit bakal mempengaruhi kisah hidupku di bab seterusnya. Aku juga berharap aku telah meninggalkan sedikit impak terhadap semua, biarlah dari sudut yang baik mahupun buruk. Yang baik terus dijadikan kenangan dan yang buruk dijadikan iktibar untuk diingati.

Ish..Berani korang ambil gambar tanpa aku ye..

Pendek kata, kem ini memang one of the best so far untuk aku. Mungkin jika aku diletakkan dalam group lain, lain pula kesudahannya. Jadi, bersyukurlah kita ditemukan dalam satu kem, satu tempat, satu kumpulan dan satu persahabatan. Si anak helang akan membesar suatu hari nanti, membuka sayapnya dan akan berterbangan megah di udara. Nescayalah.

I miss u guys..

Thursday, December 31, 2009

goodbye 2009....hello 2010

the year is almost gone but hopefully it also made us strong......


the path was long..but we walked it proud with a song.....


there were fears & tears..but we also had the reasons for cheers....


cut the story short...



HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE
=)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Worst day in UTP..perhaps in my life(almost)

what the hell..what happened??



i worked so hard just to buy it..saving money like i'm going through hell..even though at last i ended up using the money to buy air ticket to UMS..and finally i managed to come back here,get back the money i used,and bought it..BUT WHY???it is not even a month i'm using it..why there are @#$%^&* aiming me,stole it from me???



i was a little bit of moody yesterday night..i dont know what happen to me..knowing that someone close to me is in the bad mood or something affecting me too somehow..so i ended up sleeping earlier instead of continue studying or going out for a 'milo ais'..perhaps it was a bad decision..?



there's no lock to my room..it was spoil,unrepair by the v6 management..and it was about the end of the semester so they dont really give a damn on us..and so it happened..



it was a mistake,for sure..i slept earlier,found myself waking up at about 4.30am with the door half open..the first thing came into my mind was my laptop and handphone..yup..there are still there..wallet is still full with money..my roomarete is not feeling well so i thought he forget to close it back and went to sleep..so i wake up and closed it back..

and later,my roomate was in panic..at about 6am..he said he lost his phone..i was shock and checked for mine..#$%^&..gone..both of us..its not even a month with me yet..i hope the thief will rott in hell..car accident..whatsoever la..i dont care..and hate being nice to people ady..i did nothing but to went out for studies..and why there are people showing faces to me for that reason?

what can we do..?police?room to room search?well..nothing..

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Love is kind
Love is harsh
Love is wonderful
Love is terrible
Love is a cure
Love is a sickness
Love is LOVE
Love is hate
Love is meaningful
Love is pointless
Love shows the best in people
Love shows the worse in people
Love makes us speak truth
Love makes us lie
Love understands everything
Love confuses everyone
Love builds your life
Love tears your heart down
Love makes you smile
Love makes you cry
Love makes us cuddle
Love makes us hit
Love makes the world go round
Love makes the world go crashing down
Love makes things simple
Love makes things impossible
Love is always worth it
Love is never worth it
Love makes us smarter
Love makes us stupid
Love is enlightening!
Love is BLIND
Make love not war
Make war out of love
Love encourages
Love scares
Love is peaceful
Love creates fights
Love is soothing
Love is tough
Love is holding on
Love is letting go
Love is a way of living
Love is a way to feel



In short, Love Is Everything...

Do u Love mE?

wake me up..when september ends..

i feel happy when people around me are happy and vice versa..i dont know why but i will try my best to make them happy even it doesnt related to me..even if i have to lie about something..even if i need to be somebody that i dont like..as long that they are happy..i'm fine with it..



out of the sudden,i re-call the moment..the day..when i force myself to give the answer 'i am confuse right now' and even after i purposely intro someone to her..and i remember how i used to be in the past regarding this matter..but still i couldn't lie to myself now..the difference is just i step in too deep this time..i am in trouble?perhaps i am..



the fact that she doesnt know the actual truth doesnt bother me..but the worst case is that i'm doing something to her which i shouldnt even started it earlier..i feel bad lying to her,and did 'that' purposely for a few times..it sure hurts a lot..a lot damages..be it mentally or physically..



i did the 'stupid' plan again..from the 1st step till the last step,it is all calculated,no mistake at all..but now it doesnt depend on me to make a u-turn..i am not the one who can decide the outcome of the plan..somehow it differs a little than i planned..shall i stay strong or give in?


and again,knowing the fact that there is something happen behind your back doesnt feel good,at all..i am not dumb or an idiot who do not know how to read a body language..i know everything that happen,in and out..or at least,i sense it..hehe




i guess what goes around comes around..since this is the way i treated someone(s) in my past,now,i get it back..it doesnt feel good of course,and now i know how and why it is so..

and last but not least,its hard to keep a secret..there are only two person here know about the truth,and they are protecting it for me(thanks guys)..i even appreciate it that they try to make things better for me..but to be frank,it might not work as it needs a green light from both side..i am still in the plan's outcome progress and hopefully this green light wont spoil it..like someone said,if u going to die,make sure u die alone,dont let others to know about it,sad and cry about it..although i dont really agree but..i dont have a choice do i?simply i want but i cant actually..and i damn proud to make a twist back,hehe..making i myself feel less guilty about it..anyway,can anyone else come and share and keep my secret?just anyone..haha

ah..someone..anybody..please..just wake me up when september ends..