Friendship

Friendship is like a physics formula..it is easier to understand how important a formula is but it can be very complicated when we want to apply it into a question and the outcome might be correct and gain marks or wrong and you'll remember the mistake for the next exam..

Sometimes i do wonder..why it is hard for us to treat everyone equally..when u need help, u will find that particular friend for help..but what happens next is that u will never find tht friend again until u need help again from the same person..have u ever come across such a person?i mean,they will be super nice to u out of the sudden..via chatting or sms, they will use nice word to u until they ask 'can i ask u something' or 'actually, i have a prob..'..and later there wont be any sweet msg-s from them but a 'straight-forward task'..

Or you have a friend that is super close to you in the beginning of your friendship,and suddenly you can feel the distance is getting further apart..and the more u try,the more effort u put in,it doesnt work..the distance is still fall apart..more input no output..it is still a Newton's 3rd law but with a negative reaction..and somehow u might wonder why or wat hav u done wrong tht this friendship is slowly fading away..

but put in another way round..what would u do..if there is this kind of person tht u dont like tht much..but somehow tht person like to hang out wit u..talk to u..share personal prob..ask for your help or advices..what would u do..ignore or just say i'm busy..or try to be a good guy & at the same time try to maintain a distance?

wouldn't u say its complicated?its like an essay of problem for u to solve..it can be done by using one and the only one formula..but the tricky part is which one and what's the exact value to be used..if human makes friendship so complicated..what makes love?

what hurts the most is that u wont dare / cant tell this to them cz they r somehow important to u..well of cz not for those cold blooded type of person :P

1st 2nd begins..

my 1st day of my 1st year 2nd sem in UTP had ended..i was totally free the whole..its like i'm on a holiday or something..the only class(Engineering graphic) was at 9am and ended at 10am..then..oh wait..there's no lab for these 2 weeks..OMG..too free for now..

so i ended up in my room almost the whole afternoon and the later roommate asked me to go gym with him and i thought..why now.. :)

gym was fun but a little bit tiring..it has been awhile since i last went for a sport or exercise.. T.T
and friends next door decided to move to V5 so we too decided to shift into their room since david's room is just opposite ours..oh well..there goes the troubles and funs.. :P

well..life gonna get busier and busier week by week from now on.. :(

recently..

Chinese New Year is coming near..so i made some cookies during my semester break to earn some extra money..or in other word,its my part time job..well, i spent my money in it and in hope i'll get it back with some profits so i did not go anywhere to enjoy my holiday..still have some left in the room so i decided to post it in facebook and TAG TAG TAG..haha..the most popular sale was of course, pineapple tart..i almost sold every single one of them and kept some for UTPian..hehe

i sent an e-mail to my beloved Kak Azi and Kak Mas about two days ago..just to thank them for the wonderful week of STE in Permata Bangi..and it's a perfect timing and programme to fill up my boring holiday..i really learn a lot from the camp and i am actually hoping that it doesnt end that fast..well, its common for a camp has its boringness in the beginning but as it goes on and we get excited about it then we realise it's about the end of the camp..

not long after i sent the e-mail, i got an auto-reply e-mail from Kak Azi stating that she's busy with something on..and to my surprise, she did reply this morning when i check my mail..though she was busy with her stuff, she still has the timeto check her mail and send me a reply..and she promised me to write a longer when after she finish with her current event..i was like " O M G" when i saw her name in my mail box..i'm touched..

at the beginning, i planned to go to Stadium Putra to watch badminton Malaysia Open especially Lin Dan, Peter Gade and Taufik Hidayat are playing..due to some reason, the plan cancelled..i planned to watch the semi-final matches which seem to be interesting but now that Lin Dan pulled out and Taufik is beaten in 1st round, i guess nothing is worth watching anymore since i watched Chong Wei fought Peter Gade last year semi-final..well..lucky me?

semester break is coming to an end this sun and busy life will start again soon..just that this time will be a little different from last sem, since something happen..hehe..

i'm expecting to meet my friends back in the campus..and wondering how to organise my room at V2E-210 this time..its smaller than my room in V6..damn..

Sang Helang

Program 'Soaring the Eagle' (STE) yang bermula pada 3 januari telahpun berakhir. Aku tidak pernah sesekali menyangka bahawa aktiviti-aktiviti sebegini mampu memberi kesan yang mendalam pada diriku. Jika aku tak silap, program yang mendatangkan kesan yang sama pada masa yang lalu adalah 'Dharma Youth Camp' (DYC) dan 'La Sallian's Leader National Convention'.

Asalnya, kalau ikut hajat hati, ingin kuponteng STE. Tak kiralah hendak memberi apa jua alasannya. Sebab aku sudah membuat perancangan untuk pergi ke Sabah, negeri di bawah bayu. Sebuah tempat yang kurindu sehingga kini. Namun masa telah membuktikan pilihanku untuk menyertai STE adalah tepat. STE telah membuka mataku, untuk melihat dunia dari arah yang lain. Jika sebelum ini mataku sudah terbuka, STE memperluaskan pandanganku lagi.

PETRONAS Permata mengingatkan diriku tentang Grand Blue Wave Hotel and Taiping Bukit Merah Resort, tempat di mana aku menyertai Program Kecemerlangan BAKTI pada 2005 dan 2006. Setaraf. Aku pernah mendengar cerita tentang STE daripada kawan-kawan yang pernah menyertainya sebelum ini, tetapi, tempat yang digelar syurga oleh para peserta ini jauh berbeza daripada gambaran yang diberikan. Bilik berpenghawa dingin, pemanas air, gim untuk bersenam, basikal untuk dipinjam, gelanggang dan padang boleh untuk digunakan dan pool serta snuker tidak dikecualikan. Ah, tempat ini bagaikan mimpi indah untuk orang yang dijemput menyertai sebuah kem!

Tambahan pula, kumpulan aku (Group 2) terdiri daripada 20 orang rakan yang hebat-hebat belaka serta 2 orang facilatator yang memang terbaik sekali. Aku tidak mengharapkan sesuatu yang mustahil, cuma berharap ikatan persahabatan yang terbina dalam masa 5 hari setengah ini tidak mudah diputuskan begitu sahaja kerana walaupun masanya adalah singkat, namun aku sangat gembira kerana dapat mengenali mereka semua dan lebih mengenali kawan yang telah berkenalan sebelum STE.

Kak Mas (kiri) dan Kak Azi (kanan) yang mengendalikan kumpulan 2, pada pendapat saya, berjiwa muda. Mungkin mereka pernah melalui zaman yang bergelar remaja namun, kata-kata serta tingkah laku mereka tidak berubah seperti sebahagian daripada kita. Kemunculan mereka berdua telah memberi inspirasi yang baru untukku, memberitahuku impian yang pernah sekali berkabur menjadi mimpi masih boleh menjadi harapan yang menyinar di hujung jalan. Cuma, persoalannya, apakah aku dapat memberi alasan yang kukuh untuk terus mempercayai cerita masa depan masih menungguku untuk mengukir plotnya? Jawabnya sudah tentu aku ada.

Perjalanan 5 hari setengah di Permata sudah cukup untuk mendewasakan pemikiranku, sekurang-kurangnya aku dapat berfikir setaraf lebih tinggi dan selangkah lebih jauh daripada sebelum ini. Aku cuma berharap STE mengambil tempatnya sebelum aku melangkah masuk ke alam sarjana muda. Untung sekali junior-junior yang bakal mengelar diri mereka sebagai Student 1st year 1st sem. Semoga mereka dapat menggunakan peluang ini sebaik mungkin. Bagiku, masih belum terlambat lagi jika nak memulakannya. Walaupun mungkin terlambat sedikit, namun aku masih mempunyai masa yang tinggal untuk berubah.

Kawan? Eh, banyak! Ada roy, pete, zaid, deen, syuhada, allen, mazuin, azimah, fauzan, haziq, syuk, ridhwan, haiqal, dan imi. Yang lain boleh kata dah kenal sebelum ini. Namun, kehadiran mereka serba sedikit bakal mempengaruhi kisah hidupku di bab seterusnya. Aku juga berharap aku telah meninggalkan sedikit impak terhadap semua, biarlah dari sudut yang baik mahupun buruk. Yang baik terus dijadikan kenangan dan yang buruk dijadikan iktibar untuk diingati.

Ish..Berani korang ambil gambar tanpa aku ye..

Pendek kata, kem ini memang one of the best so far untuk aku. Mungkin jika aku diletakkan dalam group lain, lain pula kesudahannya. Jadi, bersyukurlah kita ditemukan dalam satu kem, satu tempat, satu kumpulan dan satu persahabatan. Si anak helang akan membesar suatu hari nanti, membuka sayapnya dan akan berterbangan megah di udara. Nescayalah.

I miss u guys..

goodbye 2009....hello 2010

the year is almost gone but hopefully it also made us strong......


the path was long..but we walked it proud with a song.....


there were fears & tears..but we also had the reasons for cheers....


cut the story short...



HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE
=)

Worst day in UTP..perhaps in my life(almost)

what the hell..what happened??



i worked so hard just to buy it..saving money like i'm going through hell..even though at last i ended up using the money to buy air ticket to UMS..and finally i managed to come back here,get back the money i used,and bought it..BUT WHY???it is not even a month i'm using it..why there are @#$%^&* aiming me,stole it from me???



i was a little bit of moody yesterday night..i dont know what happen to me..knowing that someone close to me is in the bad mood or something affecting me too somehow..so i ended up sleeping earlier instead of continue studying or going out for a 'milo ais'..perhaps it was a bad decision..?



there's no lock to my room..it was spoil,unrepair by the v6 management..and it was about the end of the semester so they dont really give a damn on us..and so it happened..



it was a mistake,for sure..i slept earlier,found myself waking up at about 4.30am with the door half open..the first thing came into my mind was my laptop and handphone..yup..there are still there..wallet is still full with money..my roomarete is not feeling well so i thought he forget to close it back and went to sleep..so i wake up and closed it back..

and later,my roomate was in panic..at about 6am..he said he lost his phone..i was shock and checked for mine..#$%^&..gone..both of us..its not even a month with me yet..i hope the thief will rott in hell..car accident..whatsoever la..i dont care..and hate being nice to people ady..i did nothing but to went out for studies..and why there are people showing faces to me for that reason?

what can we do..?police?room to room search?well..nothing..

Love is kind
Love is harsh
Love is wonderful
Love is terrible
Love is a cure
Love is a sickness
Love is LOVE
Love is hate
Love is meaningful
Love is pointless
Love shows the best in people
Love shows the worse in people
Love makes us speak truth
Love makes us lie
Love understands everything
Love confuses everyone
Love builds your life
Love tears your heart down
Love makes you smile
Love makes you cry
Love makes us cuddle
Love makes us hit
Love makes the world go round
Love makes the world go crashing down
Love makes things simple
Love makes things impossible
Love is always worth it
Love is never worth it
Love makes us smarter
Love makes us stupid
Love is enlightening!
Love is BLIND
Make love not war
Make war out of love
Love encourages
Love scares
Love is peaceful
Love creates fights
Love is soothing
Love is tough
Love is holding on
Love is letting go
Love is a way of living
Love is a way to feel



In short, Love Is Everything...

Do u Love mE?