path

the path that i am walking on currently

there was a time where i need to choose a path between two..i chose one..and i always wonder how if i choose the other..would life be more wonderful on the other side of the road..?i don't know and will never know..

there are some points in my life that i wish i could turn back the time and re-do some decision that won't make me regret about it now..

time machine anyone?

2nd year begins..

our journey looks so far away but everything is just started

and now i'm about to be called 2nd-year student/senior/junior in UTP which means i walked the quarter part of my uni life..but somehow i still feel the emptiness in me..i which i know why..

now that a year had passed..i guess i still couldn't believe the fact that i left UMS for UTP..perhaps a clear good reason will clear the doubt in me..

but it still sadden me that i am yet to find the group/gang that talks the same 'language' as me, or in another word - common interest, count-on-me-buddy etc type..but i gotta admit, there are great pals i met in UTP, some i consider as my buddy,but somehow i have a different feeling whenever i am hang out with them compare to those when i am in UMS..

well,i'm just finish my 1st year of studies..there are 3 more years to go..perhaps things will change slowly here in UTP..whether i'm happy or not,i gotta do it..because there is no machine that could turn back the time..the road might be long and looked so far away but it's just the starting point..things SHOULD BE getting interesting here, i hope..

p/s - i miss UMS a lot..kinda regret..sigh..but let's see if it is the best choice i've made..maybe in 10 years time?haha..

the past..now..and the future

our past might be carrying our sorrows, unhappy memories, or the dark moment of our life..one seems to remember all the nostalgia past very well..but we do forget that we had gone through it with all those happy moments, the top of the world feeling or unforgettable situations which give us joy and happiness..but human do prefer to remember the negative side of it rather than the positive side..

some agree what past remains the past..what is more important is who we are now..but as we fight through our daily life, problems or conflicts or choices become our next headache..we will be concerning about our study(especially when exam is getting closer), money(if u are using your own money for daily stuff or from your parents where they work damn hard just to give it to u), friends(best friend? sis/bro relationship? rival? emotion? selfishness?) or maybe something more personal..we will never know what comes next, and what would happen after that, and yet all we might asking for is some time to escape from this cruel reality world that kills our youth..

but however, what we are now might not be what we want to be in the future..hundreds of thousands of us are dreaming of earning big money, living in big house, driving our dream car etc..but how many actually achieve that? don't blame anyone by saying we never work for it or work not hard enough..the fact is actually our society kills our dreams..chances are basically given to those with experience(not fresh grad) or those with some kind of relationship in between or maybe from back door/dirty tricks..very few will be lucky, if their superiors are fair enough to everyone..and how many actually will ask 'how good are u in ... in real life' rather than 'what is your pointer' or 'which place did u get your degree from'..


just like the house in the picture..in the past, it was a home for a family but now it is left with nothing and nobody knows what gonna be of it in the nearest future..but nevertheless, hope that we do remember that our parents give us a home and grow us to be what we are today and never forget the fact in the future,no matter what happens..

smell the holiday

in less than 12 hours i will be free from utp for about 2 months(hopefully)..

next..i will be cracking my head to decide to buy a DSLR camera or to keep the money..

-taken during alvin's birthday with a sony DSLR-

so this is it..if i'm buying it then it will be a problem of canon or nikon..ish ish..let's see the result after i finish my final..lolx

it's been awhile

waoh..it's been awhile since i last post anything..

well let's see..

1-i'm in the middle of my final now where i am trying to survive..did quite badly.. :(

2-some coursework marks are quite good while the others quite bad..

3-moral studies suck to the max, trust me.. :(

4-decided to buy a DSLR..but don't know which model to buy..choosing between Canon EOS 550D or Nikon D5000

Friendship

Friendship is like a physics formula..it is easier to understand how important a formula is but it can be very complicated when we want to apply it into a question and the outcome might be correct and gain marks or wrong and you'll remember the mistake for the next exam..

Sometimes i do wonder..why it is hard for us to treat everyone equally..when u need help, u will find that particular friend for help..but what happens next is that u will never find tht friend again until u need help again from the same person..have u ever come across such a person?i mean,they will be super nice to u out of the sudden..via chatting or sms, they will use nice word to u until they ask 'can i ask u something' or 'actually, i have a prob..'..and later there wont be any sweet msg-s from them but a 'straight-forward task'..

Or you have a friend that is super close to you in the beginning of your friendship,and suddenly you can feel the distance is getting further apart..and the more u try,the more effort u put in,it doesnt work..the distance is still fall apart..more input no output..it is still a Newton's 3rd law but with a negative reaction..and somehow u might wonder why or wat hav u done wrong tht this friendship is slowly fading away..

but put in another way round..what would u do..if there is this kind of person tht u dont like tht much..but somehow tht person like to hang out wit u..talk to u..share personal prob..ask for your help or advices..what would u do..ignore or just say i'm busy..or try to be a good guy & at the same time try to maintain a distance?

wouldn't u say its complicated?its like an essay of problem for u to solve..it can be done by using one and the only one formula..but the tricky part is which one and what's the exact value to be used..if human makes friendship so complicated..what makes love?

what hurts the most is that u wont dare / cant tell this to them cz they r somehow important to u..well of cz not for those cold blooded type of person :P

1st 2nd begins..

my 1st day of my 1st year 2nd sem in UTP had ended..i was totally free the whole..its like i'm on a holiday or something..the only class(Engineering graphic) was at 9am and ended at 10am..then..oh wait..there's no lab for these 2 weeks..OMG..too free for now..

so i ended up in my room almost the whole afternoon and the later roommate asked me to go gym with him and i thought..why now.. :)

gym was fun but a little bit tiring..it has been awhile since i last went for a sport or exercise.. T.T
and friends next door decided to move to V5 so we too decided to shift into their room since david's room is just opposite ours..oh well..there goes the troubles and funs.. :P

well..life gonna get busier and busier week by week from now on.. :(